Those Two Words

What was the one experience that completely changed your life? What happened? How did it change your life?





Never thought saying “I do” could completely change your life!  If I knew how much power was in those words, I would have been more careful about speaking them.  I can’t say there was not some bliss, as people imagine.  The honeymoon, looking at life with rose-colored eye glasses really was nice.. for a while.  Oh, would all of life stay in the moment of perfection, your mate’s perfection, and everyone and everything around the two of you.  Life was sweet, so sweet even the mistakes and blunders of living seemed to smooth out so fast. You were back on “right street” in no time.

However, life returned to normal pace and you were suddenly coming to a screeching halt and switching lanes.  Trying to catch up to normalcy which did not happen.  I found myself planning, budgeting, watching and paying for bills that seemed to double.  Yes, the wedding expenses I knew were on the list, but never thought more would be added to that l-o-n-g list.  My immediate reaction was to handle it.  Handle it “I did”, but then suddenly, without warning I was handling an empty bank account.  The same bank account from which all the bills had to be paid.  I learned there was a “leak” in my system.  Going to the bank revealed the money was missing.  I went into “panic mode”.  Rushing home, there was no one else I could put this upon except my mate.  I felt like a lawyer, a juror, and a Judge, asking so many interrogating questions. “What happened, where is the money?”

My mate became a prime suspect and he was already guilty.  Long story short, one case resolved, money restored, and I went back to my accounting position.  It could have been the other way around. Meaning, verdict reached, money restored, and I was on my way home to sign annulment papers. There seemed to be some repentance.  Therefore, I was persuaded to give it a re-try since we were newly married.  After all having a responsibility to manage the household gave me some status in the world.  I had quit my job and moved away from my family to be with the “love of my life”.  So I was resigned that “I would do” my best, and “do I did”.  I did say “I Do” which is a vow to God that you keep.

I did the shopping, washing, making sure he paid the rent, the gas/electric, the car note, and the cooking when he allowed it.  After one year and now a mother,”I did” the bathing, the arrangements for child care, the career management (his and mine), the budgeting, and the accounting.  This was on my “I Do” list, but he must have thrown his away.  I can say he was a perfect baby-birthing coach, and he did get up at night to comfort new baby, but “I did” the majority of new baby care.  Nursing from the breast was easy until I returned back to work.  However, he dropped out of work without me knowing.

A trip to his office revealed everything I needed to see.  I thought I had fixed the “leak” in the budget, but discovered evidence that it was hemorrhaging profusely.  No bills were being paid!  I was devastated.  The problem we had before was much worse. My head was spirally just like the staircase that put me in the room of unpaid bills.  What should “I do” since I did say “I do”?  Long story short, the problems of thinking “I had to do” it all surmounted and they became too overwhelming.  I just could not “do it” anymore.  It was time to say “I don’t”.

Wow, never thought two little words could take you to places you have never been spiritually, economically, socially, etc.  However, depending on how you use them, how you add a n’t to them, “I do” can turn out to be a life saver in more ways than one.  Now, “I do” for me and those who know how to appreciate it. “I don’t” is still waiting for those who won’t.

“Do not give what is holy to the dogs, nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces.” (Matthew 7:6 NKJV)











Okay, you really did it this time,  My friend

You went out on the deep end

Someone was asking for mercy again

But you decided not to bend; you said “no more, this is the end”

You turned them away with these words you did say

“I just can’t extend my mercy again”.

You tried to sleep, you could not eat,

The emptiness in your heart was hard to fill

To know all that pain, you could not contain: you let it all out,

You let it all spill

Upon a friend who asked you again, “please forgive me, my friend”

You jerked, you worked, you tried to run

From the Voice that came from the Almighty Son

You’re wrong.…that soul belongs to ME

Who are you to block them from ETERNITY

That I made possible by My death on the Cross

And opened My arms to embrace the Lost

How can you who needed My love, pray every night to Heaven above

To rain down mercy and refresh your soul,

To heal your wounds and make you whole,

Did you turn My Child away from you?

Did you not think I died for them, too?

You did it this time, you forgot about ME

You could have led them to Eternity

You see, My  friend, they are another one of My friends

For whom I went out on the Deep End!

“But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy and not sacrifice.’ For I did not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” (Matthew 9:13, NKJV, copywright@1983, Thomas Nelson, Inc)









The Spirit of Fear

It was the snowiest day I could remember.  I was going home from work, but the car refused to get me there.  The street lights shone brighter that evening.  Coupled with the reflection on the snow, the night looked brighter.  Coming up on my street, I noticed two young men walking in the snow.  They seemed to be struggling as the snow was thick and deep.  As I approached them, the car decelerated as they walked along side of it.  They motioned for me to roll down the window.  Reluctantly, I obliged their request.  “Hey, you need some help”, both said in unison.  “No, I’m ok” answering back from a slightly cracked window.  Although they looked nice, clean, and friendly, I wasn’t sure about rolling the window down too far.  One seemed to come closer to the car as I struggled at the wheel to get through the thick snow.  “Where are you headed”.  I did not want to really let them know I was about to park.  With a friendly tone, I motioned to a parking space.   They both were engaging me in conversation as I parked.  Asking me questions that I really did not want to answer.

When I approached my apartment building, I began to feel uneasy.  They marked my steps and followed me to the front door.  At this point, the conversation got personal.  “Is this where you live?” one of the guys asked.  I responded, but was shocked at the next question.  As I unlocked the entry door, I heard “are you married, who lives with you.. your boyfriend, husband?”  Quickly I responded  not wanting them to know I lived alone.  “No, my husband”  I noticed my answer was insufficient to deter these guys from continual questioning.  I proceeded to go inside, but the guys  followed me.  Suddenly, I began to feel a spirit of fear come over me.  I knew that these guys were over stepping their boundaries.  Yet, I felt defenseless.  One more question; I had to do something.  “What floor do you live on” they insisted on knowing.  At this point, I sensed I was in danger.   I couldn’t begin climbing the stairs to the third floor.  The distance would render me easy prey for their sadistic plans.  I attempted to detain the gentlemen telling them “my husband is waiting for me”.   Thinking that would do It, one of the guys called me bluff.  ” Husband, you don’t have a husband”.

Right then, a soft clear voice spoke in my ear,  The voice said, “don’t show them you are afraid, stay calm”. How could I stay calm? The blood rushing to my head was causing a biological eruption on the inside.  I felt  “fight or flight” overtaking me.  However, a peace came over me long enough to knock on the apartment door facing me.  One knock, one answer, and immediately the door flew open.  As if I was pushed inside, I found myself facing a man making inquisition.  Quickly, I began to tell him about the two guys who were stalking me.  The man did due diligence and looked around in the hallway.  He then contacted the police to make a  report.  I knew I was safe even though this man was a stranger to me.  I also knew that God sent an angel to protect me that night.  Later on I got word that those two guys…one was discovered dead in an alley, and the other was incarcerated.   I have never doubted God to be my Shepherd.  That night it was confirmed  “yeah though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for He is with me!”

“For God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind” (NKJV)

The Blessing of the Lord

Today was a normal day for checking my emails and searching for ways to promote my book.  Although it was snowing outside, there was little planted on the ground.  So I thought I could order my groceries before I became too busy with promotions.  Suddenly the phone rang.  It was my sister who was elated from the sound of her voice.  “Hello”, she yelled in a high pitch.  “I just wanted to say ‘I love you’ and I hope you have a wonderful day in the Lord, I know I will”.

I was caught by surprise.  When she lowered her voice, I stopped my internet search to engage her in conversation.  After talking about relatives and their seemingly insurmountable trials, my sister was ready to say goodbye.  As if she forgot to say something, she took a breath and reminded herself.  “Oh, I knew there was something else I wanted to tell you”.   She told me about a woman at the neighborhood recreation center who registered her for enrollment.  The woman had the last name B………, the same last name of my old boyfriend.  Further information shared revealed that the woman’s son was a friend of the family.  Amazed, the woman made a note to share with her son. Quiet, I listened, but I felt no pain. When you hear about an old lover, immediately you get a knot in your throat, tears in your eyes, or some undefined feeling comes over you.  Yet, this did not occur.  After she filled in the details of the old friend’s present lifestyle – he was married with two kids – I still did not flinch.

When my sister said goodbye, instantly I recanted the ugly words and mysterious details of the breakup.  I toured the graveyard of old wounds in my mind.  I thought, “Lord, did I end up with the short end of the stick?”  One question to test the doubt about the answer.

The answer is definitely “no” without a doubt.  With a sister who calls me, a lovely daughter, son-in-law, two beautiful grandkids, and a host of others who love me through all my trials, emphatically no.  I did not receive the short end, but a long and everlasting legacy of love which only REAL family and Jesus can provide.

“The blessing of the Lord makes one rich and He adds no sorrow with it”

(Proverbs 10:22  NKJV@Thomas Nelson 1983)


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Why “Katrina”?   Is that not the name of someone’s wife, someone’s child

Does this mean that their character is wild

Wild and wicked, destructive at worst

Causing loss and inflicting hurt?

I’m glad that’s no one I know

For if it was I’d have to speak softly, but swiftly go

Get out of the way of such a soul

For I may not weather the strong winds that blow

Everything into the air and back to the ground

Reaking havoc and breaking homes down!

Who would want to stay with such a woman or child

Are they as crazy as the wicked, the wild

Do they not respect the strength of nature

Dare they go up in the Eye and face her

Once is surely enough to know that

One cannot follow which ever way the winds blow

Get out, escape, never turn back

There’s nothing there but darkness and lack

Move on, go forward, for Katrina is gone

But she left Rita to carry on!

Though the storms are raging in my life, my soul is anchored in Jesus Christ



A Kiss is not a Kiss where there are no lips

no lips to speak the language of love to communicate a message from the Son above

A Kiss is just a Kiss when it does not reach the soul for whom it is intended

Yet, the Son died for the World, a substitute for our broken relationships to be mended

But His Kiss was rejected by man

Fell from His face and landed in His nail-scarred Hands

Like tears for the human race, His Kiss was meant to erase every vile sin committed by Man

So the value of His Kiss will only be missed when received by the lips of everyone who exists

Then and only then will a Kiss be a real Kiss!

“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us” (Romans 5:8 NKJV)



So you say you want a Life, You want a Happy Wife…

Where were you looking when there was no pain, no strife.. she was right in front of you

There were moments of laughter and plenty of things to do

Events to attend thereafter, when you met her and she met you

Time was shared, you both seemed to care

Intimacies were given, she thought “this was living”.

The Life she dreamed appeared to be coming true… then life became three and no longer two

She had a chaotic time when she told you the news

Seemed like the Church Hierarchy was giving her the blues

She suddenly found her self ALL alone

No more fun, no more friends, she had to stay home.

She let you know about the event

The Church Hierarchy told her “take a leave of absence” for a while until she repents

The news did not seem to please your ears, you even proposed just to hold back her tears

You said you wanted a Life, You wanted a Happy Wife!

So as time went on and she started to “grow”

A side never revealed about you started to show

When it was time to go to classes before the actual birth

Her pleas for you to attend echoed silently through the earth

Did she say something wrong, Did you drop the phone

“Hello, I need for you to be there…I need a birthing partner, will you come?”

That day came and it went, but you did not show

Another friend came in your place, but you didn’t care to know

Only he could not feel the pain in her heart, nor what she had said

“I wish my baby was _ _ _ _ , ripping the unborn baby’s spirit like a piercing dart

Before she knew it, there was no more life … but…

You said you wanted a Family and a Happy Wife!

The news somehow traveled back to you, who,

Not knowing what to say, not knowing what to do

The proposal just evaporated into thin air

No more smiles, no more sweet moments for you and her to share.

Time proceeded on; she went on with her life

Until she came to that road where fate introduced you to her again

You, 55; she, sixty, tried her heart to win

She remembered the pain of way back when

You did not even attempt to cover her sin

Now you say to her again “I want a Happy Life, a Happy Wife

She sent a text to you….Have a happy life, go find your happy wife!”

“Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life” (Proverbs 13:12)



Tricks are

Image for kids.. but now that you are of age to make a decision for Christ, don’t you think it is about time you gave Him your life?

See, tomorrow is not promised to you or me: suddenly we can find ourselves being thrown into Eternity

And where will you stand in that Great Day when the Books are opened and it’s Judgment Day What will you say you did with Christ?

Did you make a decision to give Him your life, or did you say “tomorrow I’ll decide what I’ll do with Him.. right now I want to continue in sin!

Please don’t delay for tomorrow what you can do today, Give Jesus your heart to live forever within

Then and only then you’ll be able to say that you know where you will be on Judgment Day

With Christ who has a mansion in Heaven for you, and those saved loved ones who will be there too!


Firm Foundations

Ever drive by an abandoned house? Did you wonder about the people who used to live there? Where they are today? Surely, at one time the house was a home. A place where a family enjoyed its comfort; cooked in its kitchen, slept in the bedrooms, and had family time together in the great room. How did it come to be empty, worn down, and uninhabitable? Were not the people happy living there, did they not work and go to school? Surely the mother took care of the children and baked meals you could smell outside the front door. Guests spent time with them, and relatives enjoyed major holidays.  What happened?

In God’s Word,  Luke 11:17, we are told that a house divided against itself cannot stand.  We read in 1 Corinthians 3:10 to “take heed how we build on the foundation.  Before a builder starts to build, he first takes account of the types of materials he will use and if he has enough to complete the building.  After establishing the foundation, he proceeds to build with plans to complete the project.  The scripture, verse 12,  also encourages us to be careful what materials we use to build the house.  Do you suppose someone made decisions individually without the consent of others that affected the whole family unit. Perhaps it was the husband  who indulged in some addictive habit, or the wife shared too much information about her daily tasks with neighbors, or the kids were not properly supervised.  What ever the case, were there extra bricks to throw rather than to build a strong foundation.

What and who are you building your house upon? Christ told Peter “that on this rock I will build My Church and the gates of Hades will not prevail against it (Matthew 16:18) We are to build our lives upon the solid foundation.  Paul encourages us in I Corinthians 3:10 “But let each one take heed how he builds on it. For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ”. What materials are you using to build your house. “Now if anyone builds on this foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, each one’s work will become manifest (verse 12) Manifested in the picture is a house built without Christ. Let us build so we can proclaim: On Christ the solid Rock I stand, all other ground is  sinking sand, all other ground is sinking sand!

The more enlightened our houses are, the more their walls ooze ghosts. “love don’t live here anymore” – © 2009 Robb North – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic


Earthly Treasure


When we think of a “safe”, it is a place or receptacle for safekeeping.  It is used to keep items that are priceless and treasured by the owner.  At one time this safe was polished and secured with a shiny lock to keep the owner’s treasure free from theft or unauthorized coveters.  It was just as valuable as the treasures it contained.  However, life events wore it down to its present battered and damaged condition.

We became like this damaged and worn-out safe. Initially we were priceless and treasured by God who made us in His image.  Adam and Eve were free to enjoy God in the land without consequence.  However, time in the Garden presented life events that precipitated their fall into the enemy’s hands. He comes but “to kill, steal, and destroy”. After he deceived Eve, humanity became tarnished losing its initial purpose.  

Unlike this safe, God in His infinite mercy did not abandon us.  His death on the Cross redeemed us from the hands of the thief.  He restored us with His blood, and put His treasure, the Holy Spirit, into these “earthen vessels”. We do not have to remain battered and torn.  “For though our outward man is perishing, our inward man is renewed day by day”. Our purpose is established. We will no longer fall prey to the thief for “greater is He that is in us, than he that is in the world! 




Image credit: “safe” – © 2007 Paul Keller – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic